Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Sore, oh sooooo sore!

Hello Bloggers, long time no post!  I've been on a journey that leaves me with questions like Why do I do this to myself, Can I just go lay down already, or my favorite DO I HAVE TO GO?  I'm wanting to lose 10-15 lbs, yes you read that right 10-15 lbs!  For the longest time I was at the weight I wanted to be at and slowly in the past year and a half the extra 15 lbs have packed on, tear!  I had surgery back in 2005, I've always struggled with my weight and after high school it slowly crept on.  I worked out on a regular basis but I think weight has always been attracted to me, no lie lol!  I'm NOT an emotional eater, I don't really like sweets, I don't binge eat but my weakness is Mexican food!  Now let me clarify that, I don't eat it like it's going out of style, it's just my food of choice!  Anyway back to the main topic, one of the many reasons why I'm on this journey includes the Military Ball.  Ours is on December 3rd, since I didn't make it to last years I have my dress ready so that's a major plus (and yes it fits).  I didn't make it because I was at the hospital with Spinal Meningitis, painful oh so painful!  I'm not trying to look smoken hot or anything I just know I would feel better about myself if I lost some weight.  Other reasons include the obvious, wants to be healthy, fit and in shape.  But to be all out honest, I'm not happy.  Yes I know, I know I should be and on a certain level I am totally happy with the progress I've made and I could easily be where I was 5 years ago but come on, I know I can do this.  I've been trying to make the right decisions about food, I've been working out and I know I have to be patient but I'M NOT!  Now I know when I say I'm not happy it doesn't mean I'm giving up because I'm not going to give up!  In the past I have because I get unmotivated but so far I've been doing really well!  I don't think I have unrealistic goals, the weight I want to be at was the weight I was at for a very long time so I know it is possible.  I've kept up my promise to the gym, hence the title 'sore..oh so sore' and it's been going very well!  Cardio Kickboxing is kicking my butt, which is a good thing, it feels awesome!  I found these pictures of myself a year ago and they are my motivation!  I've been telling myself to keep going, when I'm there I think of them and push myself to step it up...

Anyway I'm done with my 'rant and rave' and I'm pretty sure there are many more posts to come so follow me on this painful hopefully satisfying journey and with fingers and toes crossed I will get to where I want to be!

'Hey Mr Grump Gills
You know what you gotta do when life gets you down?
Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming swimming swimming
What do we do we swim, swim, swim
OH HO HO How I love to swim
When you WAAAAAANNTTT to swim you want to swim'